I can’t even stand him. Tina, Chelsea and I had a heart-to-heart talk about everything and he was brought up because Chelsea use to date him and she’s my cousin and when she moved to Florida, things happened between him and I. See, you think I’m this amazing girl, when really I’m not. I do fucked up shit. Anyway, him and I have known each other longer than anyone has known him. But, yeah we did the deed. And then Chelsea found out and we stopped talking for months. But when she came up here to visit from Florida, we fixed everything. We talked and cried. I was taken advantage of, more than once. He threw drinks down my throat to make sure he was going to ‘get some’ that night. When I finally realized what he was doing was when I made sure I didn’t go to anymore parties. I haven’t been to any parties since Halloween, when the 22 year old tried having sex with me. I’m tired of it. I feel gross.

Oh, I tried killing myself, did you know that? I’m just gonna tell you everything that I was never able to tell you before because I was scared/embarrassed. I tried killing myself because someone broke my heart. Lol, no. Not a boy. A fucking girl. Who now lives in Colombia. She fucked me over, big time. And still tries to do it. I’m sure I’ve talked to you about her before using the name “Austin.” Her name is actually Angie and I still can’t believe I’m telling you this. Fuck.