There’s been other guys lately. 3 actually. I wanna tell you about them, because I wanna be able to talk to you about this stuff.

One. Chazy. He’s weird, but he’s funny. He’s funny but he’s annoying. He’s annoying but he’s cute. I don’t know, so many mixed signals. We went fishing/crabbing the other day, and ever since then he’s messed with me and everyone has the feeling that he likes me. I don’t know, he has a girlfriend though.. He’s a nice guy and all, but nothing compared to you..

Two. Jon. Tina’s foster brother. I met him because he’s living with Tina and her family because he has no where else to go right now. He’s also like Chazy, we talk a lot. We think each other are funny as shit and we like being around each other. But we’re not really too attracted to each other, at least I’m not too attracted to him.. Idk about him being attracted to me. Anyway, maybe he’s more of a friend type?

Three. Fran. Him and I have known each other for so long. He dated my cousin though, actually she’s not really my cousin but we say that because we’ve known each other since day one. Anyway, they broke up. I’m no longer friends with my “cousin” because she’s a bitch. Well, I don’t know. I hung out with my brother, Paul, Tina, Chelsea, Fran and I the other night.. We went up to the boardwalk. When Fran and I were in the back of Tinas truck waiting to go, he took my blanket it put it over us and cuddled with me. It was cute. We’ve texted every day since. I opened up to Chelsea about it, she thinks I should go for it. She thinks he likes me, I don’t know.

I miss you, Alex. What the fuck. I can’t open up to any other guy because I’m scared they’re gonna leave. You promised you wouldn’t, you lied. You’re gone, and I have a feeling you’re not coming back. Fuck, dude. Come back. I miss you, I just need to here from you and know that you’re okay. I love you.